apat na linggo

Sem break na, apat na linggo na lang ang hihintayin kong lumipas. Tatlong buwan ko na 'tong natiis; at sa totoo lang, naging komportable na 'ko dito, mejo masaya na rin. Pero hindi ako kuntento. Nadine, hindi mo 'ko kelangang batukan. Nasa tama pa 'kong pag-iisip. Meron pa rin akong planong bumalik sa kung saan man tayo nanggaling. Gusto ko talaga. Sobrang gusto ko.
Ayoko ng ganito. Ayokong maging kagaya nila. Hindi ko alam kung ano sila, basta hindi ako kagaya nila.
Hindi 'to masama, hindi rin naman ako masama. Ganito lang talaga.
Just putting things where they should be. And my pride's not one of them.

saturday morning

...my friends and I were driving along MLQ. extension when a motorcycle suddenly appeared without warning. The driver had his headlights off, he was not wearing a helmet, plus he did not even stop when my friend's car hit a parked vehicle.
My friend hit his nose hard on the side mirror; and another friend had a huge lump on his forehead.
At the hospital, the doctors were not really keen on helping my friends. And they had to ask for payment before they treated their injuries.
It was 2 a.m. and time for their nap. A group of teen-agers does not really appeal as worthy customers. Right? God. What kind of people's servants are you? Is it always gonna be for money!? Is the answer I have in my head the reality of our society?
Please, someone tell me no.

gusto kong

maging mayor ng Antipolo.
I want to prove to myself and to everyone that a person can enter politics without taking even a single centavo from the public's fund (yep. literally, even a single centavo). I want to prove that someone can win without bribery, dagdag-bawas, blackmail, or any other form of cheating. I want to prove that the people have the power to eliminate corruption and everything it entails. I want to prove that there are still people whose reason for running is public service. As cheesy as it may sound, I want to serve my town; and if possible, our country. I want to contribute to the betterment of our fellow Filipinos.
I want a Philippines that is for her people.
Back to Antipolo. There are so many looming problems in our town that it makes me wonder why local government projects are focused on beautification. The still increasing number of trikes, the still stagnant street children wasting their lives away through blottles of rugby, the never ending search for drug lords (i wonder), roads that have been repaired yet remain unfriendly to vehicles; and I could rant on, and on, and on...

wala lang

silang nangangarap,
silang pinagkakakitaan.
sino nga ba ang nauuto?
tayo'ng nagsusunod-sunuran?
kayo ba ang nanloloko

o tayong dapat nagtatanggol
laban sa mga nang-aapi
at kapwang mapansarili?

august 31

broken glasses.
built-up hate.
bitter smile.
toxic tears.